When that's ALL I can think about. When I used to choose sex with him over food. When all I ever did was crave him. And sometimes, I want him to want me so bad, that my fingers tingle achingly just touching his chest. I thought that seeing me grow fuller with his baby, would churn his insides crazy with desire. I was wrong....And baffled at how he could look at me with such neutrality.
Because the word "neutral" never existed in my life. I never wore neutral colors. I don't have neutral beliefs. I don't make neutral decisions. Everything in my life is...heat and gusto. But he's all comfort and niceties in five-year old Levi's.
Because the word "neutral" never existed in my life. I never wore neutral colors. I don't have neutral beliefs. I don't make neutral decisions. Everything in my life is...heat and gusto. But he's all comfort and niceties in five-year old Levi's.