i wonder how it's possible to want so many different, opposite things at any one given moment...wanting summer to last forever, yet wanting Labor Day weekend to quickly arrive so I can go back to Louisiana to see my Mama, my little Sweet Pea, my monster Izzie, my 5 sisters and the rest of my family. wanting a new signature fragrance instead of my regular Jean Paul Gaulthier cologne that smells so deliciously soapy clean on me.

wanting to be rid of old demons, but still needing to somewhat dwell on them sometimes and remember the angst so they can inspire whatever new goal I'm working towards.

wanting to always go back to my favorite places to eat (Bar Bao, Prohibition, Cafe Ronda) but still try new places and never having the time to do it.

wanting to re-invent my look - try a new hairstyle, a new wardrobe, but yet...wanting to stay good ol' familiar me...Because the 16-yr old me has gotten a few things down. She had a purity in her approach to love that held strong, over and over.